i don't know.

i'm running out of pictures to put up here. i'm not very photogenic, you see. hah! i have to think of something to talk about before i come here, how sad. but ehh, it hasn't been a very good week so far ):

OHWAIT, good stuff first.

yay for cleeeveelanddd (Y)! first team to reach 50 wins :) totally killing everyone else right now, hah. but oklahoma have been quite awesome too. 

OH, gossip girl's finally out again! so i went downloading like crazy. & new himym and white collar final omgosh! it's so SDKJGHKSJHFS. 

oh and one more thing. cross country yesterday haha. apparently only 70/360 people in year 12 went in. everyone else either didn't come to school or just legged it at lunch. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA, i find that funny. so much for compulsory.

youtube videos! before i complain. lol.

ahahhahahahahhahaahahahhahahahahha, too funny.

win season 5 please! :)

yeah, so here we go.
am dreading the thought of AP3's in a week.
then after this chunk of exams, AP4's/trials will be soon in august?
then hsc after that :/
crap. i never realised how soon that was.. 

i don't know what to say. i've just been raging and complaining all week.. i'm kind of sick of myself now LOL. aghh. it's weird, i'm really starting to feel the pressure of year 12. 

english assessment was on tuesdayy. it wasn't the essay question that would make me want to die lol, but it wasn't the question that i wanted either. the one in between, question 2 :/ 
eh, i don't know. i got way too stressed the morning/night before and forgot bits and pieces so it was all over the place. i was alright though, even if my rank does drop.. it can't drop TOO hard right? as long as i'm still in top 20 i think i'll be okay. 

yeah, you probably don't want to read this, i sound annoying as -_-. 

i'm not ready for 3 unit maths.. and i don't think i'm ready for the speaking exams for jap & ext. i can't even write a 3 minute speech in 10 minutes in english, let alone japanese. 
this whole week, just the thought of AP3's make me want to skdjfhdg. so i've been feeling crap.

i think when there are no exams, everything's good. my study pattern's good, my motivation is good/average, hah. but once stress is added into the equation everything's screwed. just because of some stupid unnecessary stress that's only there in the first place because i procrastinate like wth. that didn't even make sense. but yeah, my head's pretty messed up right now lol.

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BUTT. (haha, butt.) i know this is nothing to worry about :) 
i know i can't do this myself, so i don't need to.
i have an amazing guy up there watching out for me, and i know that he's all i need.
thank youu. i don't know why it took me so long to realise.i guess i was too caught up in worldly things ? school -_- yeahh. there's so much more to year 12 than just this.. kindof. LOL i don't know.
i don't know what i'm saying.

when i am weak, you give me strength.

ilyjcccccc.